There is a saying I heard a few months ago. It said "Business does not equal productiveness". I agreed with it, and I do believe I understood it completely. As with anything though, it's one thing to hear it and agree with it. It's another to live it.
I am extremely indecisive right now regarding my time. I just recently settled on a morning routine and I'm proud of it. It allows me to get done everything I want to get done in the mornings. As for how my days are spent however, it's like my brain is always engaged in a battle with itself.
"Do more!"
"But hey, don't do too much."
"Work hard! Grind like your life depends on it- cause it does!"
"Don't miss out on enjoying your life by choosing to slave it away"
"Be thankful for being single. You're young! You've got plenty of time."
"You're not getting any younger... don't you want to enjoy your husband while you're both young?"
"Don't waste your time."
"There is no such thing as wasted time."
"Work"
"Relax"
"Speak up"
"Observe"
"Do this!"
"You should do that instead.."
Etc. Etc. Etc.
If I could name this chapter of my life, I believe I would call it "Indecisions: Attempting to Live My Best Life.".
Have you ever thought about that? The sense behind that statement? Living my best life.
Hm...
My question is, how exactly can you live your best life? We only get one and there are so many choices to choose from. How can you be confident, assertive, and happy with living your life... if you only have one life to live?
If it were up to me, I would have at least five lives. Then I could attempt to live each one fully dedicating myself to experiencing all that those five different paths have to offer without wondering what it'd be like to live differently.
It seems like in every path of life, there is both an up and there is a down. Person A has more money than person B. But person B has more tight-knit loving relationships in his life than person A.
Person C and Person D are considered "goals" but are emotionally isolated from each other. Person E and Person F experience deep emotional connection but because you barely see them out, they're considered your average couple.
Person X has 7 best friends, but none of them are true friends. Person Y has one friend, and that person will be there for the rest of their life.
What I notice is not "quality over quantity", which is what we are all encouraged to notice when we are given paradox's like those. What I notice is "we all do and we all do without".
There is nothing blatantly dissatisfactory about one person's life over another person's life because truthfully, they all have their advantages.
I guess it all boils down to contentment.
Person X may have 7 not-so-true best friends, but person X also gets to enjoy multiple personalities, a wide variety of birthday gifts, and a girls night out like no other.
Person C and Person D may not be authentic "goals" but they sure do know how to spark a love for togetherness amongst the many couples they influence.
Person A may not have as many if any tight-knit loving relationships in his life, but thanks to his amount of money he can afford to travel to incredible places at the drop of a dime and bring a suitcase full of name brand clothes with him.
I really have no way to wrap up this post except to pose a question, because I really don't have a solution.
Do you think that there is a such thing as a "better" lived life? Or do you think that we all experience the same level of a good life no matter what we do because we all experience benefits of our own?
Let me know in comments...
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